i kinda fought with my mom just now.
its a long story.
and its also my big mouth.
english was funny.
i passed my maths test .
wheee...

i fell so sad this few days.
i dunno why.
i look happy.
but im not really.
i dont know what is bothering me.

i need to go shopping.
that would ease the pain.



ouh i was a poet yesterday..
and this poem is to no one in particullar!
ouh just imagine this girls..
if someone proposed to you reading this poem..


A million times I say to you.
A million times I mean it too.
A million times that I dont deny that
I have always loved you.
And a million times I hope that
you love me too.
Caring and loving that's what I'll do.
I will even share my heart with you.

nice?
okay im hungry.
BYE!

BONJOUR!
during morning assembly..
the wind was blowing from behind..
i didnt tie my hair...
so my hair was ALL OVER THE PLACE MY HEAD!
malay.. cikgu bad influece. hhaha.
ENGLISH.. mrs phee non stop talking about dyslexia.
haiya..
fiqa: eh kau panas
widad: YES I KNOW I'm HOT!
hahhahah.
POA ;]
got cute relief teacher :]]
spl meeting. did the board.
then i panjat the balcony.
then got a veryvery good view of the school.
then roshan saw me during softball practice.
he shouted thalib lah as usual..
then his coach scolded!
HAHAHHAHAHA padan muke !
then after the meetin..
he took a picture of me with that like make it look ugly thing.
then show all of his friends.
MALU BODOH!
muke dah lah buruk.
ujhfluhdfjhduhfsjdyhgsklhglihsdgfsjLDIHGlisnlihglwskdjgd;pjp!!!!
janah shooed me off :[[
off back home.
daddykins sending my library books.. buyin for me pass usage.. and paying my library fine! :]]]
YAYAYYAYYA!
okay. so i have HOMEWORK!
AU REVOIR PEOPLE!

i feel so useless.
i have no life.
i am an idiot.
i am the girl who irritates you.
i want to be loved.
i want you!

today.
got assembly.
mr loh funny lah.
hhhahaha.
okay so then s.s test.. conspearms fail.
then english.
BREAST friend. hahahhaha
i was feeling HIGH!
hahahha
thenthen..
after school. went tamp...ate.. go rounding... then go my house..
farah high.
WE WON SOFTBALL! :]
okay. you know what?
FARAH IS SO IRRITATING!
but no matter how irritating she is .. i still love her somehow.
but she still is irritating.

OH GOD! i need braces man.
my teeth. YUCK!


you made my day by just smiling. :]]]
okay ciao.

the past two days have been okay lah.
on wednesday i dont really remember.
all i remember was that mr cheah?
he said tick tock and sounded funny.
hhaha. ouh drama was great.
and after that. JENG JENG JENG!
got a war. hahhaha
mpk2 !
see! now i addicted!
THANKS EH!
ouh the 'war' was between me.atiqah.nadiah VS some of the nepalese boys.
we were the place infrotn of the toilet at the canteen. opposite the softball room.
then roshan started shouting thalib
then i shout back gurung.
then roshan and his friends shouted thalib.
then we all shout gurung.
but in the end i dunno who won.
hahahha
okay lame i know.


today..
f&n watched supersized me.
it disgusts me man.
like i myself cannot finish small fries.
how can the buy super size?
OH GOODNESS.
just now i was a dayak . hahha
recess. cold sia!
chem was okay. then mdm yani " the _____ sheshe" hahhah
the blank is one of the equipment at the lab.
MATHS TEST!
i hope i past.
it was kinda easy. kinda.
okay so after school.
ATE ROJAK! :]]]
then.. go drama.
FUNFUNFUN. :]]
WHY OH WHY!? hahaha
im president
okay so went home. tired mann!
CIAO!

BONJOUR!
on saturday went with atiqah to airport.
come lets make it a regular thing.
then we shall be regulars at starbucks terminal two.
haahaaa
okay so went there.. ate poppeye's? and off to study at satrbucks.
over there got this mat saleh guy.. who laughed and his sound effect like WOAH!
we laughed hearing him.
hahahhaa
i head a super super like painful head ache.
on the way home..
smelly sia.
hahaha



SUNDAY
i didnt have madrasah.
wheee..
so then went to this some kind of mango sale
OH MY GOD!
its sooo fcuking merepek.
its like the baju is like all those like old fashioned.
but i did see a codroy pants... but its $40 .. expensive sia!
and the mango basic top is also $40.
NONSENSE BONSON!
hahahha
okay i bought tom yam :]]
went home eat ... nice sia!
woohhooo!


today nothing much happened...
ouh wait!
hahha during POA was fun.
hahaha .
okay nvm.
after school got that grooming thing.
hahaha.
then after that..
saw loshan. hahah loshan. hahahah.
HE PULLED MY TIE! IDIOT!
jhohnsjchfljasndfkuhdgshfljg
okay then after that.. went guides room.
was being giler.
hahha and then went banquet.
ouh in the bus we saw this guy who looked like joakim and acap.
jannah named him ape eh?
i forgot lah.
ahahha but the name is funny.
okay lah . tired lah !
AU REVOIR!

WAHLAU!
so many homework sehh.
sad.
im getting the hang of maths.
geography was just fun.
seet lei? dunno how to spell lahh..
she was eating.. then ms rabia saw.. then she threw away and
gave her back the wrapping.
haha okay then everyone NOOO!! and AIYOO!!!! thenn..
ms rabia said.. unhealthy food.
then dunno who said then if we eat apple can?
then she say can.
hahahha. so were bringing apples on her lesson.
haha.
okay. ouhh.. just now..
during POA.. hahahah mrs lim said "tough club" instead of TAF club hahhaha.
dunno why she say also.
okay.
after school changed phone with nadiah. THANKS EH!
then off to tm. ate at kfc. then went to mini bits.
ouh over there kan.. someone wanted to kenal2 with atiqah.
an indian ite boy. the i luaghed so loud before atiqah said no.
SOORY EH BOY!
hahha. so went around . blablabla.
then. took 8.
i saw this woman whose armpit hair was i think even more lebat than my dad's .
hahahhaha
and its was like can see when she stretch her hand.
EWWW!YUCKS!
i want to buy that slipper!
in the bus took pictures. some ugly. some okay. the last one i think it was nice .
okayy..
BYE BACIN2!

HELLO.
school was okay lah.
F&N . the rotten egg. i cannot smell lahh!
not smelly!
hah okay nvm.
i realised that most of our teachers are very good.
like as in not easily angry.
i like :]]
okay.
HANI! pls do not do what you did at the toilet just now. its a nono. okay?
wahh after school... go mac. then we thought we were late.
RANRANRANRAN!
wah run like mad. then we saw CT 18. at first. stopped running.
eh can take or not? cannot lah.
three seconds later...
EH CAN LAH!!
run run run.
hahaha.
STUPID BUS! pay $1 sia.
FCUK!
ugghhh!!
nvm . what to do.
then we realised that 22 was behind. shit.
oh well.
so when we reached school. DRAMA starts at 3.30! UGGGHH!!!
roshan was wearing singlet just now. asked him to put on some clothes. cause it wasnt flattering.
hahaha. IM EXCITED FOR SYF! wheeeee...
okay so.. after drama.. got soccer match . sec 3 vs sec 4.
SEC THREE WON! wheee...
quite fun lehh.. fansyuri was damn funny. hahaha hud was chicken little. hahahha.
oh there was a ...
after then right ... go home lah. with faiz and hani..
SUKE EH! candle kena fire you know!
hahaha
okay nvm.
OHH!! just now at the field..
we in the field.
we kick fast.
we watch the boys playing soccer.
the boys score..
we shout goal!
sec three's get victory.
yeah..
[ follow show stopper] hahahhaha
okay enough. go do your hw. eh the american idol contestants are like -.-"
dont they realise that some of them really cannot sing .
hahahah kesian sehh.
AU REVOIR!

HELLO!
YAY! today.. quite fun :]]
there were 8 of us :]]
then go to class..
malay cikgu like " saya ni malas jugak"
hahha
okay..then during recess..
got this boy..
he eat damn fast..
he came later than us and went off earlier than us.
hahahahah
GEOGRAPHY TEST POSTPONED!! :]]]
cme. hahah my drawings damn nonsense.
hahaha
ENGLISH!
BUAT BODOH! mrs phee favourite..
ahahha..
ouh you know what is our homework?
WATCH THE ARENA!!
hahahhaha
good huh? teacher ask to watch teevee.
hahahha otae..
then CME again. watch i am sam :]]
then after school. got pl meeting.
before that..
faiz said this to me : why got triangle ?
bermuda triangle issit?

and you want to know what he is refering to?
MY PIMPLES!
-.-"
haiya..damn painful okay. its not the outside one..
its the inside one.
wahlao.koay so spl meeting.
quite fun.
and funny.
tepolary hahahah..
and SHA-let.
hhahaha
i was kinda high.
ouh. no vulgarities.
hahaha
or pay 50 cents.
-.-"
haha okay. then i give all the examples of vulgarities.
FCUK YOU!
*HEE*** FACE!
hahahhah
dunno lah alot.
hahah
okay so many laughter.
ciao. watching the arena lahh...

HELLLOOO!!
i quite sad. BECAUSE OF YOU!
hahah
no lah a bit only.

wah today so effin cold.
i wear singlet AND jacket
hahahhahah
okay the seating arrangements were -.-"
eh. POA quite easy lehh..

after school..
LJS!
at bodok . eh salah bedok.
okay so then went to atiqah's house.
WAHHH!!
ALOT OF LUAGHTER.
and ghost stories. which creeps me out.
okay
now im back.
wah damn chatting with soleha is damn funnny.
wahlao. roshan is damn irritating.
but never mind.
hhaaahah
chatted with him .
crazy i tell you.
haahahaah
but soleha more crazy.











why do you like me?
im just a plain boring girl.
i dont tell stories nicely.
its all boring.
i tell lame jokes.
and im not pretty.
im very skinny.

so why?
huh?

HAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!
nabil is in my madrasah.
hahhahahhaha
ouh and hani's bestfriend. or is it farah's added me in friendster.
HHAHAHAHHAA
okay
im being evil.
actually im always evil.
MUAHAHHAHAHHA
okay enough.
should i get the jacket?
hmm..

HELLO!!
i went out with atiqah and hani just now.
went to airport. to study:]]
met up.
sorry atiqah for being late.
sorry hani for your extra dollar.
so bought bk. then off to popeyes' tak tahu spell lah!
lots of lame jokes.
i felt so vulnerable just now.
both of them beat me:[[
IDIOT!
okay.. so studied at starbucks.
wanted to study at mcCAFE..
but it ended up to be inside.
so cannot.
but atiqah can..
she got "flight"..
but missed it .
hahha
stupid.
studiedstudied..
then wan..arfan..ahmad..shahrel..
met up with us..
then go back lahh..
want to know what?
HANI IS GATAL!
but i still love her..
hahah
lonely.. mr lonely.. i have nobody to call my own.
hahah
okay i also love atiqah.
and everyone else.
including you.
yes you lah.
hahha
okay im feeling crazy.
kay bye !

i am wearing my brace!
pianful.
okay not really
i feel as if my back..
now is getting more and more senget.
i should be using my brace!!

i think .. roshan's friends start calling me THALIB!
IDIOTIC!
GRRRR!!
okay.

i got lots of homework
atiqah came over my house just now.
only the two of us.
alone in an empty house.
nasib bukan lesbians.
hahha
okay.
i dunno why i felt so tired and drained out today.
OH MAN!
i want to study.
but i need a good rest first.
OH SHIT!
madrasah on sunday!!
*groans*
okay supernatural coming..
:]]
ciao.

STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE!!
yummy...
school was okay.
mrs lim is so nonsense.
ouh just now..
mrs loke : okay 4e5..
instead of okay 3e4.
hahhaha
chemistry is a bit confusing. but im getting the hang of it.
why is everyone pulling my hair!!
sheesh.
after school rained.
all ran..
except for nadiah and ciner.
too bad bobo couldnt join us. :[[
ate at mac..
adila wanted to eat mc chicken .. after i bought for her mcnuggets -.-"
luckily i daring enough to change:]
okay. drama was not as fun.
ouh nvm
WE GOT THE PUTTING IT ALL TOGETHER CD!
YAY!
i want to join syf.. but dunno whether to take a leading role or supporting role.
i dont mind anything. as long as im involved :]]
THANKS NADIAH!!!!
i lovelove the bracelet :]]
MUACKKS!!!
okay ciao.

I WAS ALMOST LATE TODAY.
school was okay.
DRAMA WAS JUST GREAT!
ALL THE SKITS WERE AWESOME.
especially WAFAH's AND SOLEHA's AND FAZARI's
HAHHAHA damn fcuking funny.
what goes on in the dance studio stays in the dance studio :]]
then ate at mac.
imagine ppl calling me widad kurus
HHAHAHHAHAHA . atiqah you should understand :]]
i have been very tired these few days.
like my back always hurts.
okay better go now.
HOMEWORK! EAT! SLEEP!
thats my life.
as boring as always.
okay.
ciao :]]

HELLO!
yesterday..
I DID MY HOMEWORK! hahaha.
with fiqa and atiqah
we were like studying.. studying..
then suddenly talked..
the baby..
atiqah's milk moustache.
hahah
and the way atiqah immitated my mom's voice.
HAHAHAHHAHAH!! same sia!

so today..
ate at kfc.. yadayadayada..
studied at hani's house.
and who actually studied?
HUH!? WHO!? TELL ME!!
hahha
okay lah im tired.
DINIE! YOU SCRATCHED MY BAG!
shit you.
hhahha
okay sorry.
ciao.. strawberry cheesecake here i come!

FAIZ IS LAME!



Hold me like you'll never let me go ___Faiz; says:
upper sec books heavy seh
just shut up. says:
YES I KNOW~
just shut up. says:
!!
Hold me like you'll never let me go ___Faiz; says:
yaa
Hold me like you'll never let me go ___Faiz; says:
i think i must buy luggage bag ah
just shut up. says:
HAHHAHA
just shut up. says:
LAME SIA!
just shut up. says:
anyways..
just shut up. says:
will it make a difference?
just shut up. says:
i dont think so
Hold me like you'll never let me go ___Faiz; says:
haha
Hold me like you'll never let me go ___Faiz; says:
ntah
Hold me like you'll never let me go ___Faiz; says:
haha
just shut up. says:
lame lah you
Hold me like you'll never let me go ___Faiz; says:
=)

okay lame.
:]]
im bored.
no maid is so tiring.
sheesh.
BUT I WILL SURVIVE!

school has been okay.
class has been okay.
but i miss two express five.
i miss dinie and adila and fariha and faiz and hassan and ow yong and kayan and roshan.
alah everyone lah.
yesterday was cca day.
i dressed as a pirate.
then atiqah and sakinah were by whores .
haha
fun but very tiring.
i was shouting and shouting " join drama"
like mad woman.
finish aledy...
i bought green tea.
tambah sia.
hahah
i was that thirsty.
i came back.. was freaking tired.
atiqah how can you forget your shoe?
sorry but the bus came and 59 lambat nak tungu.
sorry darling.
OH MY GOSH!
my sister is not going to be with us anymore.
she goign to stay at hostel!
i might miss her.



what have i done to you?
why do you keep doing this to me?
dont just think about yourself.

lights off at 12..
but i couldnt sleep.
my body was tired but my brain is still working.
so i tried and tried. and i slept. at last.
i woke up at 5.45. mandi blablabla.
wheeee i missed everyone.
including ow yong man!
haaah
okay so 3e4 is not too bad.
sitting beside fiqa!
yay!
lost of homework.
at 10.45... i got spl duty.
so tiring man. stupid 1e5 no response.
have to shout like mad.
then blablabla..
drama.. also must shout.
i think im goign as belly dancer :]]
hehe
okay tired lah.
ciao

HELLO!
okay so today went to
ES CA PE
with.... dinie.adila.farah.hani.arfan.
i saw two cute guys.
and i saw the other cute guy earlier last year.
hehe
:]
okay sooo...
i am like doing CHORES!!
oh my gosh
and just now my dad jemur baju!
shocking man.
hahah
okay
ciao.

hello bacin-bacins.
im bored.
okay today followed sam with aminah
sam buying shoes.
wahh so tiring man.
and i actually felt like the house kosong without the maid.
maybe we not gonna continue.
get weekend maid.
MAYBE.
i dont mind.
all the money we save...
can bring the whole family to a europe tour.
i have one of rhose please.
rather than a maid :]]
(as if)
but i may never know.
hehe
okay gotta to ge used sleeping early and waking up early.
:]]

okay so now i continue.
okay so afer that ate lah. joked alot.
then sent my maid to the airport.
she's goign home.
HOW TO COPE!
SPOILT BRAT!!
okay never mind.
she was like carrying a super heavy bag. like army bag liddat.
hahaha
okay so then i got swensens ice cream!
then sent food to ppl's houses.
then went back.
no one at js.
then balbalabla.
so amati wardah was at js.
and we ate and joked a lot!
okay my aunt laughed so much.. she went to the toilet a few times
hahha
okay this was the joke [okay you guys reading this might not find it funny]
so we were joking on how my granny spells people's names.
or how weird poeple's names are.

so granny wanted to right this persons last name at wedding punyer you know
the envelope which has money inside..
so the person's last name is supposed to be
banafik/banafiq/banafi'/banafee..
and my granny spelled it like this..
banapig.
HHHAHAHHAHAHAHHHHHAHHAH!!!!!
okay .
then we looked through her adress book and we saw this persons name..
WAN BAHAYA! hahajahahhahahha
okay then this other person i forgot what the name at the front was..
but it was...
..... mak nya buruk.
and all of us were like shocked .
then started laughing our asses off.
ouh and my granny spells television as..
TELEBISION hahaaha.
okay enough.
so went home.
no more maid!!!!!!!
then.. watched failure to launch.
okay lah.
not too bad.
then it was goign to countdown..
and i went to the belcony and..
shouted.. and then my sis was sleeping at the sofa...
woke up . cause it wasnt only me..
got some other party nearby or something lah.
overall quite good lahh.